Clock ticks, time continues

It isn’t forgiving.

All we have is this moment

To acquiesce, to give in.

So we make the most it, this moment.

Working towards goals that seem abstract

And quite trivial when we think about our insignificant dot on the eternal spectrum.

So…we choose love, connection, parenthood, friendship

To mark our place on this Earth,

To make it worthwhile, meaningful.

At the end of our life, we will turn back to ash, wondering about the meaning of it all.

So…I am forthright, open, vulnerable, loving…

Cherishing each connection with each person that means anything and everything to me.

And, yet, at the end of the day I just want to be alone…contemplating and, in some ways, grieving…

Because I know that even meaningful connections with other people will not completely fulfill me if my life is wasted on regret or longing or unfulfilled dreams.

I don’t even know what those are.

Most of us seek expectation of what we think a dream should be, missing the whole point.

I am currently in a space of wanting and longing…but to what end?

The act of wanting or longing never amounts to anything of substance or meaning.

What matters is what’s happening now, between my ears, within my own soul.

Other people will never ever fulfill us.

We must seek peace within and be content to be alone.

Only then are we truly free.

Freedom to me lies in that quiet moment of solitude when we have the urge to reach out to someone but choose to be solitary, even in discomfort.

Is connection important? Of course…but the reality of those connections may look quite different from what we think we need.

We need other humans…no doubt about it.

But we don’t need specific relationships that define our existence. We simply need connection.

Stop seeking to define all your relationships.

Live in the moment. Love those who show up for you. They are the ones that matter.

When you die, you die alone…everyone dies alone.

But you can choose to live with the best people around you if you allow them in and appreciate their presence.

Some people will be in your life for a season, some for a brief moment…

But a few will stick around and become part of you and your identity, reminding you of what you will lose when you die.

But it isn’t actually a loss…it is a blessing, a privilege that you had someone willing to stand by you through everything: your faults, your neuroses, your heartache, your mistakes.

Those people are the ones we should celebrate and confide in and be vocal to…letting them know now what they mean to us…before it is too late.

Be vulnerable, speak your truth, love those people now.

All we have is now…this moment. Seize it.