I sit on the couch looking straight ahead. Not really looking but just staring into space. That void is there again…that weird dull familiar ache. It is the feeling of another failed attempt at a relationship. I am forty this year. I don’t feel it. My body shows the signs, but my mind is stuck…
Author: jlw78
An avid seeker of knowledge and truth.
My New Year’s Reflection and Resolution for 2018….Hope and Promise
Oh my gosh, it is almost 2018! I am actually looking forward to leaving 2017 behind and entering into 2018 with more hope and optimism. There was a dark cloud over 2017 (for me and many of my friends) with the first year of Donald Trump’s term and so many people buying into his empty…
Parents & Politics: A Stepping Stone in Self-Actualization
I was sitting with my dad the other night talking about the day, life, events, etc. We were talking about my siblings and me, and our “status” in life (we’re all single). He made a comment to me that we (us kids) are all a little bit weird…except for maybe Andrew. (Side note: Weird is…
Finding the Will to Connect
My journey towards understanding has been like most others before me, I am sure. It is a process filled with trials, confusion, pain, suffering, and breakthroughs. Basically my entire twenties consisted of utter confusion with a lot of unnecessary (yet necessary since we learn from it) pain mixed in. Most pain we feel is caused…
Should Fitness Be Built Into the Work Day?
I was talking with a friend today, and she inspired me to write a post about our discussion. We were talking about working out and making it a priority in our lives. We both agreed that for us it isn’t a matter of making it a priority…we both have the motivation. The problem is that…
Cultivating an Era of Compromise
My daughter and I attended Heath Mello’s campaign rally last night. He is running for mayor of Omaha, and Bernie Sanders spoke on his behalf to a crowd of over 5,000 people. Today it was reported that the National DNC was criticizing Bernie for stumping for a democratic candidate (Mello) who is also pro-life in…
My Journey From Running to CrossFit
A lot has been written about body image in women but not nearly enough. I grew up a skinny kid. I was athletic and involved in sports year-round as well as dance. I never really worried much about my body image. I just focused on my goals, in sports and academically. In college I ran…
Love Is No Packaged Deal…Let It Be
Love never looks the way you expect it to. It never comes in the pretty wrapped packages that you want. Love comes barreling in, masked as those you want to fight and resist. Love reaches into your self and twists and turns in discomfort and confusion. Only when you let go and stop controlling do…
Advice For My Daughter
The following letter to my daughter is something I wrote back in January of 2012. A friend of mine triggered my memory of it, so I went online to find it. It came from a private blog that I kept from 2009 to 2013 while going through my separation and divorce (so a couple years…
Seeking Connection Through HER
I have been struggling for some months now. I have been blaming it on the election…much of it anyway. I had an epiphany tonight that I have to get down into words. I have written of this before, but I have done a lot of work to understand myself and my quirks. I spent much…
What Does Your Puzzle Look Like?
Have you ever tried to do a large puzzle? I’m not talking about one of those wood-framed ones with eight pieces; I’m talking about a 1,000-piece puzzle that you have to spread out over a large table and invest hours to complete. Imagine then that this tiny little issue of racism, systemic racism more precisely,…
New Years Resolutions for 2017
New Years has never been my favorite holiday. It comes at the end of a busy and hectic time of year and marks the beginning of a cold, gloomy, arduous time of the year with no scheduled holidays or “free” time off in the upcoming future. January through March is easily my least favorite…
Notes In the Margins 